The Problem With Being Single...

I've been single for more than a year now...the break up was hard, but I never thought that after a year it would be even harder.  Everything I read said that after a certain number of months you would start forgetting about what you had and why you loved the relationship so much, and also that you would think more of the negatives and not the positives, yeah did I think about the negatives and that it was a good thing we broke up? Of course!  But, as time went on I would remember why I fought so hard for us...

What is it with that one guy that can have such a massive effect on a women?

After the breakup, like most couples do, we said our goodbyes and promised to keep in touch.  But what does keeping in touch really mean?  To me it meant being there for one another in a time of need, but also keeping our space from one another because you know we were broken up, but for us space wasn't just walk a different way to class or go to different clubs when you go out.  Space meant 1200 miles...

That was our downfall.  

Seeing each other every three months for a week and spending every single second together, then bam, those 1200 miles were between us again.  I spent everyday thinking about him, well mostly every second, because he wasn't here, he wasn't a drive away, he was a day away...literally, 24 hours.

Now that we're broke up I feel that 1200 miles has gotten bigger.  Remember the whole we'll still talk thing? Yeah, that never happened...I waited and waited, looking at my phone everyday wondering if there was some sort of miracle, but I was highly disappointed.

The first time we talked was May 6...seven months after the breakup...his birthday.

I was more nervous than I had ever been in my life.  I wrote and rewrote that cheesy "Happy Birthday!" text more times then I probably want to admit.  I was so mad at him for not texting me over those seven months, but I wanted to be happy because I as finally getting to talk to him.  The one person who understand me and put a smile on my face.

It was a short conversation, but it was good...what I needed to get me through, until my birthday, which was in July.

I kept holding on to that one glimpse of hope that he would text me saying this was a huge mistake, but what was I thinking?  He probably already had another girl blowing up his phone and was on the road to recovery.  Of course July rolled around and I got the text, the text I had been waiting for.  Just seeing his name on my phone with "iMessage" underneath it put the biggest smile on my face.  That's all I needed...

After my birthday it was the occasional, "Hey how are you?" you know that sort of crap.  Don't get me wrong it was meaningful, to me at least.  I just wish I knew what was going on in that emotionless mind of his.  

Later in the year the texts kept coming more frequently and the conversations kept getting longer and I got more and more confused on what was happening.  I mean talking on and off all day and also snap chatting had my head spinning.

And that leads us to today...sitting in my bed going out of my mind crazy waiting for this guy who I haven't physically seen in more than a year to pop up on my phone.  Why does he still have such a huge effect on my life?  Is it because he was my first love, the one I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with?

How do you ever get over that one guy who had you believing life could never get any better without him...

How can you say your single when your still in love with the man of your dreams?

Avila Goes Hollywood

It’s not everyday you get to sit at a table with LL Cool J, Chris O’Donnell, and other high profiled actors.  It’s not everyday you get to sing happy birthday to Mr. Cool J himself, and it’s not everyday you get to play apart in one of CBS’s best TV shows since 2009.  Not very many people can say they have done or get to do any of those three, but for Theophilus Clark, 2004 Avila University graduate, he’s considered the few.

            A communications major with a focus in advertising, Theophilus (Theo) had high outlooks on life after college, joining the NBA, being a millionaire, and acting.  When the NBA fell short after hurting himself his sophomore season with the Avila men’s team, he started to have a different outlook on life, “After I got hurt, I started to look at other opportunities outside of basketball to new endeavors,” he said.  That’s when acting set in.  After working a few jobs out of college and unsuccessfully finding his niche, Theo asked himself a simple question, “What do I want to do that I’m going to be happy with,” and in May 2011 he packed up and headed west where dreams come true.  Hollywood.

            Harvey MacKay said it, “Find something you love to do, and you’ll never work a day in your life,” and for Theo that was acting.  Starring in a few commercials in Los Angeles, he was most noted for his rolls in Kansas City’s Blue Cross & Blue Shields commercials, but his big time break was and will be his first speaking role as Los Angeles Police Officer Leonard on CBS’S NCIS: LA. 

            It’s only right to have nerves walking into a table read with famous actors, but for Theo it was all business. “Everyone was very welcoming, and you could feel it was a pleasant environment,” he said about the table read, “but when it comes down to filming it’s no different then writing for a newspaper, you have deadlines so there’s no margin for error.”

            When you make it big you always have to look back and think about the people that got you to where you are, and when asked what professor he learned the most from, three stood out to him.  “I definitely took different lessons from different professors at Avila, however a few that impacted me on a personal level were Stan Banks (English department), Dottie Hamilton (Communications) and Linda Strelluf (Communications).”

            Being from New York to moving to Los Angeles, Theophilus has seen his fair share of trial and tribulations, but with his faith in God and the outlook to go out and have fun with what you love and believe in, life will lead you down the right path.  For Theophilus he’s right where he wants to be.

           

*Theo’s episode “Fish Out of Water” will air February 25^th at 8 pm/c on CBS